freshhnba:

Dougie

rihannanavysexslave:

straight getting it.

They found her in a creek. Said she must’ve drowned. She was my friends girlfriend. She had such a pretty smile. She came at Justin with a knife. I didn’t even know her that well, but she’s dead. It’s fucking me up. I took a shot in her memory. Then it was two, then three, and four, and five shots… I miss my best friend. I want him to apologize, and say he was wrong. Tell me that he knows how much I love him, and how much I’ve been there for him. I haven’t wanted to cut myself in 2 years. But tonight I want to cut. I wont, because i know it doesnt help, but that didnt stop me from drinking did it?

Someone must’ve been there. Someone has to know how she died. Why she was in that creek. It doesn’t make sense. Fuck, here I am trying to solve this, and I didn’t even know her. I want to be numb. I havent drank enough, but I cant drink anymore. What do you do then? What do you do, when your whole life seems to be crashing down upon you? Maybe rehab will help. Tomorrow I enter the Campus for Hope.

Hope. thats what I need. I’ve run out of it. I’ve come a long way though. But how much longer is it? Is this what life is? Is this what i’ll have to endure till the day I die? No wonder I almost killed myself. Still tempts me. Fuck why is she dead?

Why?

(via marijuanaeyes)

Aloe Blacc - I Need a Dollar

This song resonates with me so much.

”I had a job, but the bossman let me go,
He said, I’m sorry but I won’t be needing your help no more,
I said, Please mister bossman, I need this job more than you know,
But he gave me my last paycheck and he sent me on out the door”

This is my nigga right here. Just dont give a fuck!